Dementia & Caring

My dad has multi source dementia (whatever that means) and I look after him. This is a scattered collection of thoughts on that - i'ts not advice, it's just us muddling through. There will be ranty bits, sad bits and happy bits.

Friday, 6 July 2012

"I always said I'd move back in if things got bad"

*warning*
this post is just one big rant

"I always said I'd move back in if things got bad" VERY GOOD, SO WHY DIDN'T YOU THEN? My mum had an affair & left my dad when she was sixty / he was seventy (+/- a year, I'm never that good at remembering specifics). It was with another woman, I don't feel that that makes a difference but most of my family are so backward she gets referred to as mums 'friend' and its not seen as an affair. She didn't want to divorce mainly it seems because she wants to pretend she still lives here for various reasons, she wants to keep herself in the closet & she doesn't like being on her own so she comes & watches tv here when her gf is at work (she hasn't quite retired yet.

So she didn't move back in when my dad got bad, I did. She does 2 lunches and one dinner a week while I'm at work. Yesterday she attempted (i am immune to her attempts after thirty cough years of it) to make me feel guilty coz her gf is annoyed that next week mum will have to do lunch on both of her gf's days off. IF I WASN'T HERE YOU'D BE DOING IT EVERY DAY. She wouldn't put him in a home because the house would be sold to pay for it so she'd lose her little bolt hole & pretence of being straight. 

I don't actually see her much - she doesn't come round to help when I'm here. On the occasions she does she sits in the lounge nibbling on her scrawny person lunch watching loose women or something equally dire on the tv & asks me to 'help her' with things. I end up sat in my room.

Next week my brother is visiting - she will manage to be here everyday cooking the golden child's meals & making out she always helps that much. She has no doubt prepped him again that I am evil & horrible and that she does everything. He is so much like her it is scary. The visit will involve her doing her martyr act & the both of them having a go at me. I hate my family but I won't bore you by extending today's rant to the rest of them!

I feel a bit better for that!

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